Good greetings everyone. I hope all of you wonderful people are doing alright. I know I've made some posts regarding suicide but nowadays I am more invested in helping people to try to care for them. I just don't know why that some people have to be rude about it. Maybe I guess they're not comfortable with the fact of me asking them or maybe they don't want to be annoyed by me. But it's just that my sensitivity gets overwhelmed and for the first time in 3 years, I've cried today due to someone's behaviour. In my life, some people blame me for not caring enough. If I try to care, they think I'm being dramatic or just being too annoying. There's always someone who will ruin my happiness and peace of mind. Never has there been a day in these 4 and a half years where I've felt truly happy. It's worthless for me to even think that anything is going to get better. I'm holding back my tears while making this post so I guess I'm maybe too sensitive but that's how I am. I can't change it. I think it is pointless to even expect anymore. I'm being overwhelmed so much for so long and now, I just can't take it anymore. I can't even distract myself since it never works for me. Mental illness, trauma, family issues and so much more has just debilitated me. Now, I don't care about anything. Now, it's over. Please take care everyone. Please don't let my post affect you in a bad way. I've been helping very kind people and i don't want them to read this as I don't want them to worry about me. Just take care everyone.