Trigger warning: Extremely and severely depressed

 

AOA and Good greetings everyone. I hope all of you are doing well. I have been feeling extremely depressed and it's making me lose my sanity. There are a few things that I would really like to post but I don't know where to post and with whom to even share things with. I know a lot of kind people will tell me that it's ok for me to share in these groups but in the comment section, I see people commenting about the absurdity of my post and then some admins tell me that I'm not allowed to post such content. I am aware that things like these do trigger people's anxiety and stress and can affect them negatively so that's why there's literally no one with whom I can share things with. I have no one. I have been blocking a lot of people in social media and distancing from a lot of people in real life as well. There's no one with whom I can feel comfortable with to share things with. I have a few kind people who do care about me but I can't share things with them as I know that it'll badly affect their mental health and also they can't even understand me and I know that. I don't even know if there's anyone out there who is able to tolerate me and who's strong enough to listen to me. I don't want any advice, I don't want any suggestions, I don't want any recommendations. And I certainly don't need a good listener. I want a strong, smart and an honest kind person with whom I can feel comfortable enough to share things with. But I'm not even sure if there is anyone out there who can help me that way. I've been requesting for that for so long but to no avail. This might be my last attempt to request for that someone. Because after this, it would never matter to me.